no blogging for 7 days!! wahaha. was too busy on stuff and like that okay. sorry guys, eunice momma also. she wanted me to blog but i dragged till today. =pp

woke up to wait for him but he dua me. all he said was he lost his hp and then expect me to forgive him. what crap leh.

went choir, learnt new songs cause i didnt turn up for choir the session before. @@ early dismissal for me and thought he would freaking come and i was freakin so wrong. all the crap i know.

quarrel and quarrel and quarrel... bla bla bla
pk and i went pastemania for lunch, fabulous shit i must say. OF COURSE I ORDERED MY FAVOURITE COZZE!! great. =D

went home for tv then all the missed calls, online and sms messeges from him. then broke up.
i think its all big crap lah. how many times he wanna repeat this shit? no more chances.
chat with jieyong, celeste and their cute friends.
today, sucked.

24/12;25/12
merry xmas people! this is my first time hitting town on xmas day. i can imagine bangalas being bashed up already. =/ how ironic.

i'll update more tomorrow i guess. im tired. and lazy. not in the mood at all. just pictures i'll show.





ciao.
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sudden urge to blog due to the scary amount of stuff i wanna get. -.-

1. A TRIP TO MALAYSIA
2. webcam
3. with the mic of cause
4. Dior ring
5. hair permed
6. Guess? handbag (bian saw the damn bag before and then its soldout all of a sudden at metro. who knows where to get Guess? stuff?)

i guess the most probably done are the options 2 and 3. others i dont know leh.

I WANT TO GO MALAYSIA!! I WANT I WANT I WANT LAH! LAH LAH LAH!! ANYONE WANNA GO WITH ME? I WANT I WANT I WANT GO MALAYSIA I DON CARE. LET ME GO 3/4 DAYS FOR BIRTHDAY LAH. JUST THIS TIME LAH. PLEASE? I WANT I WANT I WANT!!! RAH~!! BAH ARGHS!!

i want go malaysia leh. this holiday let me go la. T.T

@@

i did almost nothing today. all crap. all im thinking about is the trip to malaysia. all i want is that. VERY SIMPLE. its just all i wanted.

okay i'll take forever to finish anyway. (:

i wanna go.

RAH.

ciao.

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did nothing today, stayed at home for tv and only bian called when he return from hostal. chat then he went to bed cause meeting him tomorrow morning to lavander with qiming. he getting ic so tag along. then bian's N level results in the afternoon at 2. (: good luck to all by the way.

i was so bored i wrote something.

也许，只是也许
我会幸福快乐都是因为你
依依不舍的还是爱着
但你已朝向别人怀里
因为需要而离开
所以
有一天，
也许你会发觉
我，已经不在身边
心情也像晴天一般
到时候也知道
你已不属于自己
你在找我吗？
对不起，谢谢你

all crap. duh. gonna catch some slp now.

ciao lovely.

;i am afraid


has been a few days since i blogged. i know i slacked again but hey, it means longer entry right? HAHA! i dont know how i feel today. broke up with him. was gonna meet him up the day before but overslept. what to do? no fate and he aint good. i think i fell in love with him deep enough. so does it mean i loved him? god im dumb, hope not. =/

spend the whole day at home, bian went back hostal and adrian working so my hp went silent. my phone always ring because of these two but most of the time is bian la. LOL.

anyway, did some online browsing for hello kitty. so KAWAII!! -.- thought i could do some act cute language but always failed, right? @@
some pictures for eye candy.



















then this series of hello kitty bags (tweed version)







nice hor? xD


this is the perfume i wanna get. estee lauder beyond paradise!! but no $$ ):


the Chanel charm i found over the net so long ago. gorgeous.

photos are great stuff.

so anyway, went out yesterday. heels are killing my feet and bian was angry due to my moodswing cause im having period. =x then i went on alone for clothes and accesories. bought some earrings and a cardigan. then to nailart that cost me $29 dollars, bian helped with $19. -.- im happy la okay.

cant remember the days before all these, just bought uniform and stuff like hanging around or had chats with friends online.

谢谢你哦 阿fai，

不知道你华文名。=p 我好想去你那里可是你和我应该都要白开心了=。= 我妈应该是反悔了。 好生气啊！！ 对不起！！ 如果真的可以的话才告诉你吧。不要不理我哦！（：

as for bian leh, thanks as well. thanks for being there when i need someone. its always u. arent you happy when you start with this entry? hahaas... xD

thats all for now. more tomorrow okay. and ya, notice i remove the password? okay its tedious shit. sorry guys.

ciaos.

;i am afraid


4/12 ;
its sunday but was awaken by my brother early in the morning. i was too tired and woke up in a blur manner to brush my teeth and wash my face then got on the car not knowing where we were going till we reach my popo house then i know i lost my lovely popo ler. ='[

we start with taoist prayers and then fold cone like shaped 'money' for my popo in heaven. i believe she went to heaven cause she very nice. i like her alot although we arent close at all.
my gong gong cried upon seeing her in where she is supposed to be lying in. so the day goes with all the folding and talking with my cousins of my momma's side. they were criticising about bian which i think is quite okay cause they dont know him. my brother doesnt know him so he thinks his shit. thats their point of view, simply because they dont know a thing about him. but i dont mean his good as well. =/
till late night, i went home and got some sleep.

woke up the next morning to work with coco and mingho at toa payoh. its a survey thing and its really very tedious. all the same questions and same boring places. i only earn freaking $14. RAH!! went down to ang mo kio (popo's house downstairs) after that and did the same thing over and over again till wed and then people starts coming to give respect. had noodles for dinner. drink ice milo till i scared. -.-

all my cousins and brother stayed overnight except me. not i not good leh, i just wanna sleep and have enough energy till midnight everyday there. i cannot do anything without sleep. oh gosh, i sound like some bad kid. =/ but im really sick of the insense smell. sucks, i hate all smoke by the way. im really allergic to it. eww~

on thurs, my popo was sent to mandai for 'cu ping' dont know how to spell the whatever centre. =/ she was sent in very slowly, we were in the viewing hall and everyone was crying to the dear. i still cant believe shes gone so fast, so suddenly and so painful. arghs i hate all these. went back to their house downstairs again after that for lunch.

reached home after awhile to go to coco's birthday chalet at downtown east. went cwp awhile for mos burger, alone. meet up with kit then saw peng they all while i was in cab. kit wanted to follow them so i tag along, if not i want go coco there. =/

the beach was nice, the air was nice, everything was nice except the freaking mud me and baby stepped on. fuck off alright!! they proceed to shower and we bought something to eat, chat abit with qiming and went off to coco there.

coco went cycling so we waited inside for her. the fucked up people say they waited too long and so we go in her chalet sit awhile go toilet liao have to go. kit wants to go cause peng wants her to. i was freaking hot liao, go out still cannot see people so i very worried liao. then these fucktards came out laughing from the side thinking its very funny so i went over and scold bian the three letter word. i don want to sound vulgar here but im fucked up already. so i walk very fast alone and then he ran up to me to explain, i cant hear anything anymore.

while we were standing at the side of the road, they discussed about how they split cab fare and stuff like that and i asked kit if shes going anywhere, then peng very attitude.

'you want go you go with her larh! dont follow me, i dont want you follow me leh!'

fuck!! i cannot tahan liao i talk back saying i never tell her follow me, i didnt want things for them to get bad then he give fucked up face. i left once i see a cab coming in the mids of them chatting, i guess they are very shocked. i very attitude also but i dont care cause im really very angry. peng open the door and pushed in kit telling her to go with me but i pushed her out, telling him that im going home. im gonna bring her home man! WTF!! don care larh.

reach cwp, saw adrian. i did piercing and bleached my hair. nice nice nice leh! wahaha! i like leh! good luck to adrian going bintan next year for shooting of ming xin ou xiang. he is their hairstylist. cool right? xD

9/12 ;
went to bishan ting early in the morning to collect my popo's ashes and did all the prayers. went back home to watch the remaining vcds then went cwp to get my slippers as they are stolen by some asshole while im sleeping in my popo's house. i dont know why they want something so old. -.- i just want to wear them home leh! bought a pair at charles and keith and getting my pointed heel on monday. i simply love it. (:

1o/12 ;
woke up late and got ready to meet fer LOVE but was raining heavily so waited awhile before going out. meet them at foodcourt, she was with teresa who looks really like coco. LOL! chat chat, waited for them to finish their food and went to charles and keith to show them the pointed heel and LOVE looked out for nice slippers. they say i look good in those. haha! xie xie leh LOVE and teresa. =pp LOL! fer went home, teresa go to look for her friend. fabian wanted to talk so meet up. but he end up talking crap and i got really angry. i walked away then. now everyone must have thought i have really bad attitude. i don care anyway.

11/12 ;
i hate everything about today. nothing to say and i dont think i should waste my time elaborating on this. stayed at home the whole day for tv. sucked. getting uniform tomorrow noon with fer LOVE and getting my heels.

lastly, heres my lovely popo.


(my name is last because im girl =/ and is my momma side -.-)

i love her! rest in peace. ='[

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its a very solemn day today. i wont write about my history for the moment cause i want to mention what happened today.

woke up for food(haha!) and thought of looking for darling but momma decided to go popo house. called them up and things went really wrong...

popo was admitted to tan tock seng hospital due to a stroke. we rushed down asap and saw gong gong and my uncles and aunts. we were really stress and then saw her out on the bed so restless. i felt something going wrong already but i hope nothing would happen.

after awhile, someone came out asking for her husband(which is my gong gong) and family showing a scan of her head and brain. it showed huge blood abnormal clog in her brain. according to the doc, its very serious and nothing can be done anymore. even if op is done, she will not be able to do anything. she will pass away eventually after a year or shorter. everyone got very shocked and then went silent for about a few minutes. i was really worried. =/

after she got into the ICU ward, we all went up to wait in a room before looking at her. momma and gong gong brokedown. gosh its so saddening. ='[ they decided not to do op and we may lose her in 2 days.

really hate this day. really really hate it. i dont know if im going out tomorrow. not really in mood and theres work on monday with coco. arghs!! rahh~!! xO

i'll update later, maybe.

god bless my popo. i love her.

bah! ='[

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3o/11; outing with kit and coco

woke up to let coco in my house and by darling's sms. and his calls and sms-esssss. SO MANY TILL I WANNA SLAP HIM IN THE FACE. HOW IRRITATING!! oh man please dont make me hate you. i dont but it doesnt mean i'll go back to you. i mean what i say. oh gosh, im really tired of you. shoo!

coco waited for me to get ready and we wore the same kinda top and bottom, almost the same but her bag and watch is different. they are 'dior'. @@ how nice. i love her damn watch!! i'll wear it everyday if i can have it. but... no. haha! im poor shit baby. -.- im mad.

waited for kit and then set off to fareast. walked there the whole day. bought nothing cause coco introduced some meal costing me $8. when im having only $1o on me. -.-" im broke yeah. darling was there as well but he cant meet me. i cant believe it. okay im gonna stop this cause i HATE... okay stop. =/

kit went interview and we slacked around taking photo then took a cab back to boon lay, then took mrt to lot 1 to meet darling. never look at him for long cause kit wanted to play pool. i sucked but she insisted so i play lorh. no big harm larh but no money ler. went home around 9 without holding his hands, without a goodbye hug/kiss.

i dont wanna talk about what happen after i reach the mrt. fucktard, i was angry and irritated. FUCKTARD!!

then reach home around 1o and 'you know what' happened. okay stop. i hate this date.

1/12; full house

stayed at home the whole day for punishment again. watched full house for the whole day and talked to darling for awhile in the afternoon and for very long in the night. he called again, sms-ed again. i really had enough. i want to hate him and no one can stop me. freako! rahh.

slept at around 2+ i remember after hanging the phone. what a boring day. cant see him, cant go out, no money, no ezlink. no nothing, yeah i have nothing.

2/12; books and mickey to vet

woke up early around 9 to school to get my books. darling never call and i was really disappointed with the books im gonna study next year cause it's almost the same as the ones i did in sec 2. then went to sembawang's mount pleasant vet for mickey's checkup. i heard he had a kidney infection. =/ i feel kinda worried for him. sounds kinda serious. how sad. haiis. he is already 5 and a half year old. i had him since pri 3 or 4 i forgot. oh man.

i came across rui jie's blog and i find writing about one's past fun so i thought of writing my own as well. anyone who came across my blog can try it as well, if you have a blog. haha!! i'll be back again about me soon!!

ciaos. (:

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